Current mood:

weird

go out and see that world, bring it home to me
Hmm.. I'm leaving for the airport in less than three hours. Everything that happened in the past 24 hours doesn't seem real. This is my last entry.. I don't know if I'll get a chance to update at all in the next year.

I've been nervous as hell. I haven't not had a knot in my stomach. Well it's 5:40 AM now and Brad just left. Weird. We went to visit Haley about four hours ago.. it doesn't seem like that happened. It was nice though.

I think my Turkishair flight from Istanbul to Ankara got canceled. You were supposed to reconfirm at least 72 hours in advance otherwise they automatically cancel your seat reservations, and I read that important message about 48 hours in advance .. so I called them to reconfirm and they gave me a website.. and I emailed the reconfirmation thing and I received no response. lol.

Another funny thing: my life could have been 30974390478 times easier if my bank card came in the mail yesterday. Now I will have NO MONEY. Or maybe I will, but for a crappy exchange rate.

I wonder when the next time I'll feel completely calm will be.. probably in a few months from now. I'm freaking out. In a few hours I will no longer be able to communicate with anyone, there will be a different language, there will be a different system of measurements, there will be a different time system. Even little things like calling 6 PM "18:00" will be insane.

Maybe I should attempt to sleep. Maybe it's pointless.

It's weird to think that I'm almost an inbound. I wish I wasn't so nervous. This is how I feel when I have to give a presentation or something.. it's not really going to be that bad, but I make it way worse in my head.

Okay. Well. Here I go.

This is.. surreal.